
When I was a young child, probably about 6 or 7 years old, I used to head out “exploring” with a group of older children, including my brother. He would have been 8 or 9 at the time. If my memory serves me right, the others were between 8 and 12. The composition of the group would vary depending upon commitments (music lessons, sports events etc.), but there would usually be about half a dozen of us meeting up and riding out to various local haunts.
One favourite spot was disused piece of ground about 5 minutes away by bicycle. We would lift our bikes over the half-hearted attempt of a barrier (supposedly designed to keep trespassers out). Once we had stowed our transport out of sight of the road, we would explore the grounds of a demolished house.
I cannot remember a great deal about what remained there, apart from a long-disused driveway. The house itself had long since gone. All that remained was the curving driveway and a few broken bricks here and there. We had no idea why the house had been taken down, but created our own version of history:
“A sudden fire with the tragic loss of a child”
“The heart-broken parents left the area“
“No! They took their own lives”
“If you visit after dark…..“
(we never did, of course)
The recollection of one visit still bothers me.
It would have been a Saturday morning in early spring. We arrived and hid our bikes as usual. As we moved towards where the house had stood, I noticed that some small flowers had appeared in the broken driveway. I crouched down to take a look. They seemed too gentle to have pushed through, but somehow they had.
I remained there for a while, the others having gone ahead; then someone came back to me. Catherine, the eldest of our little gang, stood very close. It felt like she was towering over me as she asked. “What on earth are you looking at?”
“Um…. these flowers. They’re so pretty…. I don’t know what they are….. do you?”
“Nope.” And with that she wrenched the stems out of the ground and threw them down in front of me.
I wanted to ask her why she did it, but I was scared to. Scared, but sad and angry at the same time. Why do that?
In a blur of tears I picked up the flowers and ran. Out through the barrier, down the street and back home, crying most of the way. I didn’t even collect my bike, much to my brother’s annoyance as he had to walk it back with his. Looking back he was probably doubly annoyed because he was supposed to look out for me, and I had slipped the net.
This memory has stayed with me so vividly because of the sheer destructive nature of that action. It wasn’t much in the grand scale of things, but I felt pain witnessing it. Almost as if I’d been punched by Catherine. Whether it partly shaped my attitude towards wanton violence and innocent victims I don’t know, but almost fifty years later it still unnerves me.
I took a look on google maps to see what had become of the “scene of the crime”. I was expecting a development of townhouses or retirement apartments, but no. The abandoned patch is still there. The old perimeter wall has been replaced, and the gateway bricked up, but here it is, reclaimed somewhat by nature:
More later,
Min.

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